goodbye to you

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Goodbye to You

‘Goodbye to You,’ by Patty Smith & Scandal

I’ve been having some very interesting and hysterically funny conversations with Holy Spirit lately. Conversations that are way over on the lighter side. I must need them.
So. This morning, I go downstairs to throw in a load of laundry. I did start the coffee first. #yesihaveaclue

I’m in the kitchen and this old song starts playing my head. What?!?!

It was, ‘Goodbye to You,’ by Patty Smyth & Scandal. Now, I haven’t had even a drop of caffeine hit my lips yet, and I began to howl in laughter.

Today is the day I’m dumping a bagful of things I do not want to have any attachment to, no memory of, and they most certainly will NOT have any room in my future. #BAM #IamSOdone

I took a sucker punch this week from someone who had nothing better to do than poke the bear one last time. Holy Spirit highlighted this incident to me, too. “It’s okay to be mad,” He said, while I landed an air kick to someone’s imaginary backside, laughing all the while.

Chuck Norris Kickin It

I also had 4 inches of old hair cut off this week. I’d had an inch taken off last month, but I still couldn’t comb through the ends without endless tangles and frustration. Did the Lord show me some stuff in this? Absolutely. My tangled hair represented all manner of things that needing cutting off. #yesimpreachinghere #doyougetthis #whatdoyouseeinyourownlife

I also have territory to take back. Maybe you do, too. This can be a little tricky, and maybe a little painful. You have to press through it. But this is what He said: “The new memories you make in these places will dissipate the old ones until there is no more memory of the old ones.” I nodded. Yep. That works just fine. I can walk that out.

I love how the Lord will use ANY music to help me see something and move through it with grace. He’s not afraid of my feelings and He’s using different media to pull up old emotions so certain memories can be healed.

If you’ve got anything, be it physical or emotional, that you need to kick to the curb or take to the trash or Goodwill today, this song might motivate you.

I’m telling you, people, don’t allow yourself to be entangled with anything that will slow you down. Ever.

You made to be FREE. Childlike.

I have a friend who hums Sesame Street songs on a regular basis. I LOVE this. It’s delightful.

Last night, I was sitting outside after swimming enjoying the big, tall Douglas firs in the park, getting my joy back, and Holy Spirit pipes up again. “It wouldn’t hurt you to learn a couple of Sesame Street songs, either.” I shook my head and started to laugh. That’s one of my assignments for the day. Me, YouTube and Sesame Street.

Be on the look out. You might find me humming Sesame Street tunes on a sidewalk near you.

Sesame Street Muppets Mahna Mahna

with love, freedom and silliness from Portland


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Willing to be Wrong

My drive to work weekday mornings is really precious to me.

My car is my prayer closet, and when I’m in my car, it’s me, Papa, Jesus & Holy Spirit.

I worship. I pray. I release things. I soak in His Presence. I listen.

It’s my best time, even when circumstances aren’t perfectly aligned.

Highway 30

This morning felt a little more special to me.

I’ve been questioning some things, taking a deeper, closer look, and asking Holy Spirit to lead me into all truth.

I smiled, and I said, “I am willing to be wrong.”

I’ve said it before, but today there was a different liberty in it. I continued.

“I’m willing to be corrected. I’m willing to be disciplined. I’m willing to be taught.”

After I finished speaking, I had an open vision where I saw His grace like a well, and it was deeper than what we’ve thought, deeper than what we’ve been taught.

Ask Him about this grace for yourselves, loves.

Ask Him where there is mixture in your thinking, in your ways, because when the law is mixed with grace, it becomes a mess.

We need the layers of the law removed from our vision, from our hearing, from our speech, from our hearts.

Be willing. Holy Spirit will lead you into all truth.

That’s a promise.

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Quiet Confidence

The world has collectively witnessed events with the ability to shake us to the core of our beings. I’ve been very aware of the presence of fear trying to unsettle me. I have also been keenly aware of my need to move beyond it, and break through it, arriving in the place where the enemy has nothing in me in the very same way he had nothing in Jesus.

I’m intent on learning new responses both internally and externally to walk in this dimension on a consistent basis. It’s a combination of increasing how I see my Heavenly position and what I am saying to reinforce it.

Holy Spirit reminded me of these powerful, prophetic lyrics from The Alan Parsons Project, “I see the world, and I’m looking from a higher place, way above it all, standing on higher ground.” There is an urgency to contend for and remain in this rightful position next to Jesus. It’s what Dad wants for His kids, and He wants us to step into this place now.


Earlier this week, He suggested that I write a piece called, “Quiet Confidence.” I agreed. Those words are from a verse Holy Spirit brings to me whenever anxiety or fear threatens to take my peace. When I read it or speak it out loud, I go deeper into His perfect love. The enemy has no access in this place. Fear is cast down when I say, “I trust You, Lord.”

Isaiah 30:15 NKJV

For thus says the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel: “In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.” But you would not…

When I read this verse recently, my eyes were drawn to the last 4 words: “But you would not…” Clearly, we have to consciously choose quietness and confidence to have strength.

As I sat with Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit this morning, Father began to speak:

“We are at a pivotal time in history.

My children, I want you to choose well. I want you to see the glass half full.

I want you to see My glory, and I want it revealed in you.”

He also showed me the word, “valiant.” Synonyms to valiant include, “brave, courageous, heroic, fearless, noble, gallant, intrepid, bold.

We are all these things because greater is He that is in us than he that is in the world.

We are all these things.

Our strength is found in quiet confidence.

Our confidence is found in our identities as sons and daughters of God.

Did you just feel the shift in your spirit? Truth has that effect.

Heaven is calling us higher, encouraging us to choose quiet confidence.

Hear the cloud of witnesses cheering and applauding. They know what is coming and they’re so excited for us.

We have promises to receive and a Kingdom to expand.

I bless your ears to hear the sounds of Heaven.

I bless your eyes to see that there are more for us than there are against us.

I bless your heart to be valiant, brave, courageous, heroic, fearless, noble, gallant, intrepid and bold.

When chaos is all around you, dive deep into that well of peace within you.

Dive deeper into His perfect love.

Shift your focus at light speed. Say His Name. Jesus!

Lift your arms in worship.

As you do, you become a refuge for others, an open portal to Heaven.

Praise past it all and bless the Son!

I included several other confidence verses to build you up.

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. Hebrews 10:35

For you have been my hope, Sovereign Lord, my confidence since my youth. Psalm 71:5

Such confidence we have through Christ before God. 2 Corinthians 3:4

It is better to trust in the Lord Than to put confidence in man. Psalm 118:8

In the fear of the Lord there is strong confidence, And His children will have a place of refuge. Proverbs 14:26

Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. 1 John 5:14

I bless you with unshakeable, quiet confidence.

With love from Portland,



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Everyone Gets Peanuts

Many of you know that I feed my animals at work. My critter friends include a couple of squirrels, some scrub jays and a crow or two.

Western Scrub Jay

It used to be that I would try to feed only the scrub jays. I love their brilliant blue colors and personalities. They always have something to say.

After a time, the squirrels won my heart and I began to feed and talk to them. One of these little guys will even run into the office when I have the doors open. He comes in and sits in front of my desk until I throw him a peanut. He grabs it and scoots out the door. When he’s eaten that one, he comes back for another.


The crows have now won my heart, too. I love to watch how they use their powerful beaks to break through the peanut shells. They’re strong, often misunderstood birds. I identify with them.


All these creatures come to me often. They wait outside on top of the wrought iron railing. They look in the window. They know I’m in here. They simply expect that I will feed them and love them; they’re right.

I talk to them when I feed them. I expect them to be eating out of my hand soon.

As one of the crows perched on the railing this morning, I hesitated to take out more peanuts. See, the crows can stuff several peanuts into their gullet at one time. Often, they get more peanuts than the scrub jays and the squirrels.

In my hesitation, I heard Dad say, “Everyone gets peanuts.” I smiled.

 The simple translation is so clear:

 No one is left out of receiving His love.

 Everyone is included.

 We all get peanuts.



With love from Portland,

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The Tree of Life













On May 9, 2015, Father gave me these words. I meditate on them often to come up higher, to see as He sees. Knowing His heart and mind toward humanity is even more important now in this present season.

He also said we are not to judge between good and evil. All sin has been judged and paid for. Judgment in and of itself is what causes evil.

“The fruit of the Tree of Knowledge of good & evil is bitter. It has no life in it and it leaves a bad taste in your mouth.
Children, it is so much sweeter & beneficial to you, humanity & creation for you to eat of the Tree of Life.
 This is where your son-ship resides. It is your rightful place,
position & privilege.
It is always your choice to come up higher, but know, My child,
I created this place here next to Me for you.
If you will sit with Me, you will begin to see the perfection and
beauty in which all things were created.
In this place, your words will bring life to humanity & creation.
They wait for you to speak new creation into being, for as I
have created you, so were you made to create, My Bride.
You will not see race.
You will not see religion.
You will not see income.
You will see only Me in each one.
The words you speak will bring healing & health, supernatural
provision and abundance.
Peace will reign where you walk in every land you visit.
Kiss the hand of each person you meet.
Honor them as My child and introduce them to Me.
My Presence goes with you.
Do not fear deception. I will keep you.
With Love from Portland,
Laurie Hilgers
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Assigning Value


I’m taking you back in time as I share a story and apologize to some folks. It’s necessary and ties into the rest of what Dad is saying in this post.

I used to attend the annual Christians United for Israel convention in Washington DC. A girlfriend and I went together one year, joining busloads of people from around the country.

Conversations were easily overheard on the bus. We eavesdropped on two black women wearing traditional African dresses. They spoke excitedly of their support for then presidential candidate Barack Obama.

I was self-righteous, full of pride and arrogance. During this time of my life, I was fully indoctrinated into Zionism and the Republican Party. I’d been taught from the pulpit that we were right and everyone else was wrong.

Talking to each other, but directing our comments to these ladies, we remarked, “How can you even call yourself saved or belong to this church if you support Obama for President?” I know we said more than that. They heard us; their expressions showed their hurt. Ladies, I am sorry. Please forgive me for my words and arrogance. I was wrong.

Flash forward a couple of years. Father tells me to go to the annual conference again, but this time, He has lessons to teach and layers to remove. I was awakening, asking questions about stuff and asking Him to show me things from His perspective. I was doggedly asking Him to lead me into all truth.

Things were stirring in my spirit. My heart was conflicted between what I knew Jesus said and what I was hearing from the pulpit. The conflict grew as I heard (without the usual filters) the words being released into the atmosphere in the Washington Convention Center.

In the middle of some ‘news briefing’ by a correspondent reporting on terrorism, the light bulb came on. We were all gathered in agreement to call for the annihilation of a people: the Palestinian people. We were in agreement with the covenant that unsaved, religious Jewish people live by. In continually remembering the past destruction of Jews in the Holocaust, the state of Israel justifies their current treatment of an entire race of people to the world and to the Body of Christ. The amount of effort, time, money spent to perpetuate this ideology is staggering. It causes much of the Church to be out of alignment with the Gospel. It’s a lens we must remove from our vision as children of God.

Palestinian people, I apologize to you for not honoring and loving you. You are worth as much to Father God as I am. I am sorry. Please forgive me. The negative labels assigned to you were wrong. Today, I bless you.

Here is the transition into the larger message:

Value is defined as worth or importance. As a verb, it means to appreciate or assess.

You have value; I have value. Our value is infinite and immeasurable simply because we are God’s kids – that’s all and that’s enough. Often, however, our value is defined by words or labels used to describe us. Labels describe a state of being, a characteristic, perhaps current or past actions and behavior.

Holy Spirit ran me through an exercise on a recent drive home from work. This exercise challenged certain paradigms and mindsets. I invite you to do the same exercise with Him.

Below is a list of words commonly used to label people according to their conditions, characteristics, ethnicity or behavior.

Choose someone you know and place them before you in your mind. As you read each word, pause for a moment. Allow yourself to assess your emotional and visual responses.

– Does your potential for interacting with this person increase or diminish?

– Do you think of them with honor or disrespect?

– Do personal experiences you’ve had color your perception?

-Unwed mother            -Felon                               -Jew                                    -Palestinian

-Housewife                    -Homeless                        -Executive                        -Progressive

-Alcoholic                       -Single                              -Democrat                         -Lesbian

-Addict                            -Wealthy                          -Poor                                   -Homosexual

-Conservative                 -Liberal                           -Working Woman             -Soldier

-Terrorist                        -Married                          -Criminal                           -Politician

Did you have a different emotional and/or visual response for every label? I did. My responses were based on the filters I had either learned or adopted from personal experience. This exercise rattled my cage. The visual I saw took my breath away. I’ll describe it for you. I picked 3 words. This is what I saw:

Speaking the first word ‘label’ over the person, I took a step back. That label created distance. Then, a box formed around the person. Labeling them with the second and third words had the same effect: more distance and boxes.

My choice of labels resulted in a wide berth of ‘safe’ distance from them. I noted, too, that I could no longer hear or see them. My vision of their true self was now distorted. Their value (to me) was based on my perception of them within the context of labels I selected.

How often do we subtly give ourselves reasons and excuses to disengage or altogether avoid people when their appearance or behavior falls outside our definition of normal? How often do we diminish their value by the word labels we assign to them? The ugly thoughts that follow are worse. The enemy steps right up to help us with the silent accusations.

“That unwed pregnant woman? She got herself into that mess. Let her get food stamps and welfare. She’ll probably have more kids by a different fathers. Why should I help her?” I could go on, but you get the idea.

Assigning value labels graduates into permission slips to assign blame. For example, election cycles amplify the blame game. One party blames another for the condition of the country.

In reality, these are political and religious spirits speaking through people unaware they’re voices were hijacked to accuse others. Behind these demonic voices are larger spirits of fear and greed. Each of them is given assignments to bring destruction in one form or another. And so it goes – if we allow it.

We can actively choose a better way by blessing. We can assign values to increase and build people up. We can ascribe honor, value and greatness the way God does toward us. We can use words and prophecy.

Check your emotional and visual responses again as you assign value to someone with these words:

-Free                        -Joyful                       -Creative                        -Funny

-Radiant                 -Blessed                     -Brilliant                        -Happy

-Righteous            -Fearless                      -Kind                             -Generous

-Loving                  -Merciful                     -Confident                     -Smart

-Bold                      -Courageous               -Compassionate           -Amazing

This is the heart of the prophetic in the New Covenant. This is calling those things that are not as though they are. We call people up to their true identity in Jesus Christ. This is the mind of Christ, holding the thoughts, feelings and purposes of Jesus’ heart. Our vision changes and our words change. We agree with what Heaven sees and says about people. It really is that simple.

Father God gave me this word from His heart on May 23, 2015. It was His response and direction to my request. I asked to have His heart toward all people in every situation and circumstance. He said:

“The fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and evil is bitter. It has no life in it, and it leaves a bad taste in your mouth.

Children, it is so much sweeter and beneficial to you, humanity and creation for you to eat of the Tree of Life. This is where your son-ship resides; it is your rightful place, position and privilege.

It is always your choice to come up higher, but know, My child, I created this place here next to me for you.

If you will sit with Me, you will begin to see the perfection and beauty in which all things were created. In this place, your words will bring life to humanity and creation.

They wait for you to speak new creation into being, for as I created you, so were you made to create, My Bride.

You will not see race. You will not see religion. You will not see income. You will see only Me in each one.

The words you speak will bring healing and health, supernatural provision and abundance.

Peace will reign where you walk in every land you visit.

Kiss the hand of each person you meet. Honor them as My child and introduce them to me. My Presence goes with you.

Do not fear deception; I will keep you.”

With love from Portland,



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Love’s Gonna Bring You Back to Life


The power of resurrection life flows out of the love of God.

It’s His love that draws us, causing us to rise out of our ashes like a “phoenix risen from the dead.” Those powerful lyrics impacted me as a teenager (Dan Fogelberg’s “Like a Phoenix”.) I knew God was speaking.

The love of God gives us courage to leave the past behind. His love is truth, giving us eyes to see who we are in Jesus.

I did a few chores this morning before I settled back in my bedroom with my last cup of coffee for the day. I’d just walked into my room and shut the door.

Standing in the middle of the room, my eyes were drawn to my bed. I looked to my left. Jesus was sitting on my bed.

In a moment, His love washed over me. Tears sprung to my eyes and I lifted my arms in worship. I heard the words, “Let Him love you,” play in my spirit.

Have you known the love of a father? You have permission to say, “No,” if you haven’t. It’s not a secret to God. He knows.

His agenda is love. Let Him love on you today. Let His love bring you back to life.

I bless you with love, joy and a fresh start.

Let Him Love You by Jeremy Riddle

With love from Portland,

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